maybe its the PMS

maybe its the PMS. 

i dunno.

its has been a week since we started like this,

cold war huh?

the feeling sux. 

it's probably the worst quarrel we had so far. 

i am getting numb to it.

it started happening every saturday. 

then now. since last sat, we still having cold texts to each other. 

i am so sick of this feeling. 

and i hate it. 

i am not going to give in. 

although i probably never, even though i might be in the wrong, 

but its the childish between us, we are both stubborn to start of in the first place. 

i went over your side today, 

to see an empty room without your presence. 

as i was expected, you werent there. 

i did not want to check or whatever.

but i just wan to prove to myself that my guts feelings were right. 

you text me said i spoilt your saturday.

then where were u?

maybe you are out there enjoying the moonlight. 

who knows.

oh well, maybe i cant be bothered. 

i just getting numb and tired, oh and SICK.

i tried to control my emotions yesterday in the train, 

unfortunately, you saw my tears. 

the tears were not for you. 

but for myself. 

seeing myself in such pathetic state. 

i think i deserve a better life than this. 

You mentioned they were crocodile tears. 

but they were not even tears worth for the sake of u. 

1 week. 

7 days. 

i dunno how much harsh text we sent, how much cold ignorance we gave each other. 

but i think i am so used to it now. 

or maybe its time.